As I took off from Birmingham it felt wrong to be going without you, we never went anywhere without each other. With no-one to hold my hand as the plane headed up into the sky, I missed you. So a week went by and I was 1000's of miles away had lot's of quite time and plenty of giggles with bear.But now I'm back I miss you more than ever and it feels like you just left all over again... I love you hunni and for all the strong days I have when the bad ones come they come thick and heavy... I don't understand it all, I'm not sure I ever will, I want you back, but I know thats not possible - I don't understand!!!! Love u xxx